Letters To You

its gone.

Skipped school today as headache attacked me in the morning. Plus i woke up late and I'm very sleepy. So sleep, woke up, Sleep, woke up for the whole afternoon. And mummy skipped woke too today but she went out with her friends. And ohyar, WELL DONE SOCCER GIRL FOR GETTING 1ST! i didnt went down to support as i was lazy. lol.

So yesterday, after school, around 4 plus, pay a visit to Twin grandma house. Her grandma passed away yesterday morning. So i went with Kam and Min. I had lots of fun with them when i knew, we were there for visiting. lol. They just can't stop to make me laugh. Eyfa also laugh non stop. Forgetting all the sorrowness for a while. So stayed for tahlil and went back home at 9 plus. Thanks guys for taking the same bus with me!*wide smile* and sorry min for 'hurting' you! LOL. really damn sorry lurh. But you deserve that! You almost make me cry yesterday! However overall, i had lots lots lots of fun yesterday. And to twin, stay strong n cheer up babe! :D

ACI ASKED ME TO BLOG ABOUT HER.

Nie mina kn, da giler, pastu keling lak tuu. Bbl pun mcm keling. lol. Aniwae mirah, thx for cheering me up! Thx for making me laugh. heee. And you dun sad2 too. Be happy always. i sayang you! and the bet kn, what, forget it? NO! mirah coward tu pasal suruh luperkn. My bet mmg patut luperkn. heee. ((: lets meet up during holiday! and you own me those stories ehh!

Its over between us. I know. I'm the one who asked for it. Since I'm the one who asked for it, I shall not be too sad over this matter. But i can't control myself. I love you too deep now. I can't help but break down. You gave me alots of support. Alots of fights, argument with you but you still want us to stay strong. I know, all these decision come from me. Cause I'm scared. I can't gave you the happiness you want. The reason is so simple. My parents. Yes. I told you, at this point of time, I don't believe in everlasting love. But you have high hopes on me which i don't think i can gave you. You don't find age the problems of us. Same goes to me. Our age is big different of gaps. At first, yes, i do mind about it but now, i don't. I don't care about your looks and appearance but how about others? my parents especially? I know, i shall not gave a damn on what others think of you but I just can't help it.

Now you're gone, I can only feel it now. I lost my other half which is you. You told me you wait.
I'm sorry. I just need to think, think, think, think and think. Or best, i shall forget you and focus on my N level. but.................

I don't want anything else. I just need...

I didn't ask for much, did I? I never did, you know.
I haven't been asking for anything other than just you.
You know I never wanted anything else, not after you.
But why is it so hard?
Or rather, why is it getting so hard?

Is it really just us?
Or me?

its so pain and hurting for me to come up with this decision.

XoXo from princess
@ 8:35 PM