I told myself I'm not going to cry anymore. I told myself yes I can move on without you. But why each time I'm almost there, You came back. You know me. You know I'm weak without you. You know I'm not strong without you. You know I'm just use of everything with you. You know that very well. Yet, you making me weak again and again. I thought you came back for real. Never did i expect you to left me hanging again.
I'm just use to do everything with you.
I'm used to say 'b, ily' before i went to bed.
I'm used to say 'jemput mkn b' each time I'm eating.
I'm used to report to you when I'm going anywhere/everywhere.
I'm used to report to you when I'm having problems.
I'm used to cry when each time we fought.
I'm used to cry when each time you scold me.
I'm used to hear your voice before i went to bed.
I'm used to hear your snore before you went to bed.
I'm used to hear your pathetic voice singing.
I'm used to hear your laugh.
I'm used to hear you jokes that make me laugh.
I'm used to your smell, kiss, hug and everything.
I'm used to your naughtiness.
and what i really hate about myself when
I'm used to wake up at 2am every morning just to talk otp with you.
till now, I'm used to it. You know how it hurt me. It hurt me alot much.
I miss you.
I miss your eye.
I miss your nose.
I miss your lips.
I miss your hands.
i miss your body that keep me warm always.
i miss our fight. i miss our late night talk. i miss our jokes. i miss ur laugh. i miss ur scolding. i miss ur shouting.
I miss you damn much.
Just what did i do to deserve this baby? Why me? I let you in my life again when I know all this going to happen again. I let all that to happen so as long as you with me. as long as we still hold our name to gather. I don't mind how many girls you want to have behind my back as long as you are still with me. I don't mind losing anyone just to be with you baby. But too bad, you just can't see what I'm going through.
how hard for me to be with you.
How difficult life for me to be with you.
How i try to convince everyone around me that you are not like what they think.
why cant just you see that?
If I know all this going to happen, I swear baby to treasure all our memories to GATHER. i swear i won't scold you, shout at you, make fun of you, took you for granted. i swear baby even though I know all this gonna happened.
Why you bother to gave me false hopes again when I'm almost there of forgetting you.
I'm still waiting......
I was hoping you to remember our 4th this 120809.will you remember?
XoXo from princess
@ 8:53 PM
