Letters To You

"Every relationship goes through stages. Where and how each stage develops is ultimately up to each person. While we always hope for the best, we often can't avoid the inevitable. "

True enough. Sometimes, when we hope that the things we want, the things we been holding on for so long, if it's not meant to be, it will never meant to be how hard we try so much. I learned to accept the fact you're no longer mine. I've learned to accept the fact that you are happily without me, having fun with your life.

Sometimes, I just wish that I can read through on your mind. On what you been thinking, on what's on your mind? Have you ever think of me after you leave me hanging? Don't you feel regret? and mostly, don't you miss me? don't you miss the times that we had? But it hurt me much more to think that way. Why must I think that way when I'm pretty sure that you're not thinking of me at all.

I thank god still, for not letting us meet each other at school. It would be pretty awkward for us to act like a stranger. Worst, you made a new facebook yet you didn't add me up. You even add your ex that have busted you, the ex that you always hate but why me, you didn't? This lady who have done so much for you for the past 6 months.This lady who love you like hell. this lady who willing to go through every shits with you yet you throw her away and treat her like a stranger.

It's okay. This lady have her friends and family still who loves her. In fact, I'm grateful that Allah love me and still giving a chance to live in this world to change for the better. It's okay, this lady will stay strong eventhough how it hurt seeing with other girls, seeing you on facebook with other girls, seeing you living your life happily without her. It's okay. One day you realize how much this lady meant to you. :')

I even when to the extend and delete my facebook. I mean deactivated my facebook account. But i'll be back on facebook once I can accept the fact and calm myself in a better way. The reason why i deactivate my account is simply simple. I don't want to keep hurting myself seeing you on facebook eventhough I didn't get to see your wall. Seeing you posting at your friends status all, adding girls and all. You even went to the club. Ya allah. :'( How it's hurt to be me. I always thought you are the one for me. I hope too much till I get this after breaking up in an improper way.

I can't deny the fact how much angry I am towards you. How much I hate you that I can't stand seeing your face! That I even said that I can't forgive on what you did to me dunia and akhirat. I swear I won't be able to forgive on what you did towards me. No, it's not because I hate you so much. It's just that, I hate the way you leave me, hanging. You can simply tell me the truth. You don't need to throw me away just like that. Making me suffer and cry and being emotional not myself. You said you hate seeing me being hurt, crying and all. But don't you realize all this while, i've been crying, been hurt all by you and your action. But I choose to stay and not give up. Because my reason are simply simple, I choose to be in a relationship with you and that's mean I want to be with you and only you. I won't give up on you. But yet, you choose to leave. You broke up your promises. :/ You said you wanna be with me till your last breath. remember you said that on you 17th birthday celebration? :( But why must all this happening.

No. I tak menyesal. I redha with whatever have happened. I believe allah have the reason for everything that have happened. Allah know whats the best for me. But it hurt me to the pieces seeing us like a stranger now. :(

Like what people said :

Stage 1: Meeting

Stage 2: The Chase

Stage 3: Honeymoon

Stage 4: Comfortable

Stage 5: Tolerance

Stage 6: Downhill

Stage 7: Breaking up

(unfortunately they left out)

Stage 8: remembering... :'(

A million words would not bring you back. I knew it because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I knew it because I've cried. No, even if you were to come back, things won't be the same. History repeat twice, and I won't let it repeat again.

When someone walks out of your life, let them be. There's no use in wasting your time on people that leave you. What make you of yourself and your future is no longer tied with them. Yeah, you may miss them. But remember you weren't the one that gave up.

I'll do anything to make myself Happy, smile and enjoy my life. Making my life more meaningful and treasuring everyone around me. Insyallah. Guide me allah. (:

XoXo from princess
@ 9:35 PM